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Today, I am a vegan. I have been working toward veganism for the last year. I have been a pescatarian for the last two or three years, and more recently, a vegetarian.
Today, I have decided to become a vegan. I have been listening to MP3′s concerning diet and nutrition, and I cannot help but be disgusted by the dairy and meat industries. I am thoroughly enjoying my morning hot yoga classes. A morning practice helps jump start my day, and I am feeling much more grounded and free flowing. Today, is a good day.
” I believe that mediocracy is self inflicted and that genius is self-bestowed.”
I listened to this one morning when I was getting ready for work. Philosophernotes.com offer some amazing books summarized in 20 minutes, and who doesn’t want to start their day with a little introspection? Does this statement mean that you can become a genius with your own sheer will?
I believe this statement, and I believe you can create your own destiny. It’s all how you live your life. Meditation help calm the mind and discipline helps to control it. An external locus of control only brings mediocracy, whereas an internal one brings self evolution. Do you believe you have the power to create anything? Do you believe that you can bestow genius upon yourself? Or are you stuck in a mindset of self inflicted dullness? Challenge yourself. Challenge society. Challenge the Universe to give you what you truly want in this lifetime. Do it everyday.
After a rough break-up, I got some really good advice from some good friends in met at Shambhala this summer: “Focus any negative energy into productiveness, and you’ll be golden. Much love de Montreal.”
It’s been a tough year. Almost a year of trying to be someone I am not. Over a year of trying to fit someone else’s view of what I should do with myself. Well, it’s time for a change. The fall equinox proved that when my boyfriend, who I thought was “the one”, broke up with me. There were so many signs leading to him. So many coincidences adding up to our relationship that crumbled to pieces in front of both of us. I can’t just be “someone’s girl”, and now I know. I am supposed to be here…standing alone again.
This is what I have learned:
- It’s time to carry forward. There’s no looking back.
- Always focus on the present moment. Look at the beauty of being and living.
- Focus on what you want to achieve. Focus on exactly what it is that you want in life. Focus on what specifically from day to day would make you happy.
- Ask yourself what in this present moment can help accomplish that.
- Do not focus on the things that have gotten you to this point, because those lessons you have learned, and focusing the on the things you already know is a waste of time and energy.
- Learn new things. Push your boundaries. Try things that scare you.
- Life is too long and hard to regret anything. You did your very best, you always do, even if that is 50% one day or 150% the next.
- Always forgive. Never forget. Love over hate.
So, here I am standing alone again looking toward the future with optimism and hope. A positive outlook on life is fulfillment in itself.
Coincidences… do they exist? I don’t believe so.
Ever since I was little, my mother always told me I looked into things too much. I always thought, why are things so perfectly set out? Now, I think that everything happens for a reason, and that reason is because of whatever happened in the past, and to get to that point in time of the coincidence, something in the past occurred that related to both events.
Therefore, there are no coincidences, and if you listen and watch for those “coincidences”, then you can begin to connect signs that normally would go unnoticed. This has happened to me so often that I now have no idea what direction my life is going. I believe this is because I am going again my life path and i am not following the signs that these coincidences have been showing me. Follow the events that seem “too good to be true”, because those are the coincidences that the Universe puts in place for you. Your true path. It’s scary seeing things that don’t make sense, but there are no answers. Only signs guiding you toward where you need to be. You will never understand why, but you will feel a sense of fulfillment when it happens. Everything will feel right.
For the past few months I have been feeling really off balance. I have been ignoring the signs. I have been clinging to my past, but the Universe is telling me to move on, so I shall.
Relationships are so complicated. Relationships are something that believe no one will ever understand. It’s life, and life is unpredictable.
I have always wondered about the perfect alignment and predictably of the planets. If everything from the exact moment of the sunrise to the tides, to the basic traits of your personality can be predicted by the planets, than why is life so unpredictable. There is something very special about the spiritual plane, and that is where relationships intrigue me. It is pure life, and we have tried to define what it is. But life is constantly changing and evolving, and cannot be defined.
I just bought a book to help me understand more about bridging the gap between science and spirituality. This book was written by the Dahli Lama. I will use these entries to write about my findings after reading and listening to the works of ancient and modern day philosophers, prophets and poets. I have a love of wisdom. I am a closet philosopher, and now you know.
I write to make sense of the endless chatter that goes on inside of head. These entries, like most blogs, are a direct link to my thoughts.It is a pure, unedited plug-in to my reality.
Ever since I was younger, I have thought of the world in an abstract way, and I soon found myself reading philosophy books for fun. I am not on this Earth to consume myself with day-to-day activities. I am here as a catalysts for the next enlightenment. This may seem like a bold statement; it is. Change is necessary, and you know it.
Thankfully, something as insignificant to us as writing an internet blog site about my past, and how I have learned and lived in this world, is not suppressed in our country, so I can attempt to shift the paradigms of yesterday without the fear of being persecuted. My views are obscure, dark and some even say morbid… I call them real.
I attribute this to having extreme anxiety as a child. Through this, I entered a state of consciousness or awakening that made my thought processes very different than my peers.
One thing I dealt with at a young age was the acceptance of death. Everyone, in fact, every living thing, dies. It is the cycle of life. If you are aware that you are alive, and you relish every day on this planet in this realization, than you must also realize that we are also going to die, hence already dead in another space and time. It is not a bad thing. It only is.
Death is a truth. It is a certainty.
I, on the other hand, have always wanted to live forever; therefore, death terrified me for the longest time. Now, I understand that energy within beings is never destroyed, it only changes form; therefore, although you are not “alive” by society standards, or even Universal Earth standards, your transparent energy dissapates into the atmosphere, only the become part of where it once came: the Universe.
In essence, I began writing because I wanted to live forever. I thought my thoughts and actions will live on as legacy if I could only write them down. I began writing at age 11 when my anxiety started. Now, with the internet at my finger tips, I have been able to accomplish this nervous habit of virtual thought projection seamlessly, along with my other passions as Bachelor of Commerce student, vocalist, electronic musician, pet owner, and flailer.
I want to change the world. If I could only change one thought in your mind to open up to the vastness of this Universe and the gloriousness of this moment, I have created that change, because every single person lives in their own world. Every person on this planet lives in their own reality. Every person lives in a parallel Universe. Beside each other we are synchronized realities.
I began blogging almost a year ago. It started as a philosophical editorial, and turned into a personal memoir that I still have and use; however, to feel complete, I cannot put my thoughts in there entirety for the subjects of my emotional turmoil to see on the internet. Private is private.
So, here is my new blog, yet another journal to add to the stack in my parents basement. This life is a crazy ride. Documenting my cynical opinions and curious concepts helps me cope with the mass of unknowns in the Universe. Here is a question for you then: If one certainty of life is death, most people fear the unknown, and death is not an unknown, then why do you fear death?
Live out loud,