I write to make sense of the endless chatter that goes on inside of head. These entries, like most blogs, are a direct link to my thoughts.It is a pure, unedited plug-in to my reality.
Ever since I was younger, I have thought of the world in an abstract way, and I soon found myself reading philosophy books for fun. I am not on this Earth to consume myself with day-to-day activities. I am here as a catalysts for the next enlightenment. This may seem like a bold statement; it is. Change is necessary, and you know it.
Thankfully, something as insignificant to us as writing an internet blog site about my past, and how I have learned and lived in this world, is not suppressed in our country, so I can attempt to shift the paradigms of yesterday without the fear of being persecuted. My views are obscure, dark and some even say morbid… I call them real.
I attribute this to having extreme anxiety as a child. Through this, I entered a state of consciousness or awakening that made my thought processes very different than my peers.
One thing I dealt with at a young age was the acceptance of death. Everyone, in fact, every living thing, dies. It is the cycle of life. If you are aware that you are alive, and you relish every day on this planet in this realization, than you must also realize that we are also going to die, hence already dead in another space and time. It is not a bad thing. It only is.
Death is a truth. It is a certainty.
I, on the other hand, have always wanted to live forever; therefore, death terrified me for the longest time. Now, I understand that energy within beings is never destroyed, it only changes form; therefore, although you are not “alive” by society standards, or even Universal Earth standards, your transparent energy dissapates into the atmosphere, only the become part of where it once came: the Universe.
In essence, I began writing because I wanted to live forever. I thought my thoughts and actions will live on as legacy if I could only write them down. I began writing at age 11 when my anxiety started. Now, with the internet at my finger tips, I have been able to accomplish this nervous habit of virtual thought projection seamlessly, along with my other passions as Bachelor of Commerce student, vocalist, electronic musician, pet owner, and flailer.
I want to change the world. If I could only change one thought in your mind to open up to the vastness of this Universe and the gloriousness of this moment, I have created that change, because every single person lives in their own world. Every person on this planet lives in their own reality. Every person lives in a parallel Universe. Beside each other we are synchronized realities.
I began blogging almost a year ago. It started as a philosophical editorial, and turned into a personal memoir that I still have and use; however, to feel complete, I cannot put my thoughts in there entirety for the subjects of my emotional turmoil to see on the internet. Private is private.
So, here is my new blog, yet another journal to add to the stack in my parents basement. This life is a crazy ride. Documenting my cynical opinions and curious concepts helps me cope with the mass of unknowns in the Universe. Here is a question for you then: If one certainty of life is death, most people fear the unknown, and death is not an unknown, then why do you fear death?
Live out loud,
Boomboom
